Thursday, 30 August 2018

What did I do?

It's all bloody swings and roundabouts isn't it?

One minute I'm grand, the next minute there's a change in the winds.

Looking back, it was probably not the best idea to change my meds during such a long, and somewhat tiring trip. It was probably not the best idea for me to further that change. Actually, it was not at all.

I started going up again, and then up some more, and then of course comes the crash.

I'm going to start by admitting that I'm not 'depressed', as I've known it in the past. I'm not rushing to the worst thought or feeling bad about myself. What I am is super exhausted, lethargic, tired, pooped, whatever you want to call it.

Over the course of a week, I threw up 3 times.

Now, there could be a fair reason for this. When I tapered off my lithium, and then soon realized that it wasn't working for me, I started taking the lithium again. Maybe the change of salts in my system made for the sickness? Also, lithium gives me the dry heaves in the first place, so it could be that.

I dunno.

Lithium daydreams maybe, lithium nightmares?


Hope you are well!

Love xo

Friday, 10 August 2018

Changing meds

Sooooo. Things are looking up.

I have always felt that I was on too much medication, come on, you saw the script. . .

Recently my psychiatrist and I have decided it best that I cut down my lithium intake. We came down 300mg, leaving me at 900mg.

Happy Days!!

I started to feel like I had more energy. Not hypomanic, just not droned out, you know? In terms of side effects, my shakes have gotten less intense, I haven't been dry gagging as much. I feel genuinely better for it.

So I was a cheeky wee rascal and came down another little bit. So far so good.  I happen to meet with Mr Psych in a few weeks, so we will be able to tell by then if its a good or bad result.

Oh well.

I just came back from an amazing trip with my family in Florida. I really needed the break, work(s) had gotten too stressful and I could feel my mood slipping. . . Ugh. But a wee bit of R&R, family love and Disney magic sorted that right out. I'll pop some photos up soon!

I hope you are doing well. I do aim to write some more soon, I promise.

Love xo