I've been trying to weed out stressors in my life for quite some time now. It is crucial to my recovery and stability that I am not over stressed, especially by the little things.
I was beginning to realize that there was one major stress factor in my life, and I have been cowering to tackle it.
I was not happy, not challenged and certainly not engaged.
I didn't know where to turn. I have been in the same industry, and a similar role for the past 15 years. I didn't even know how to change it.
Where do I start? What's gonna be flexible and understanding of my illness? Do I have the time to change my career prospects? Do I even have the energy for all of this?
I thought about bookkeeping. It has always been a go to of mine and something I usually fell back into throughout my career, but I also didn't want to walk away from something I'd stuck at for so long.
After mulling over my situation for a couple of years, and with things not so peachy at school, I thought what better time than now to make a drastic change.
Looking through job ads was daunting. Nothing jumped out at me. I whittled it down to 3 positions; 2 of which were bookkeeping for hospitality and the 3rd was a total shot in the dark; front desk at a local gym.
I didn't think too much of it and submitted my applications.
Within 30 mins I had en email back from the gym requesting an interview, and within the following 24 hours I had heard back from the other 2 positions. One was sadly already filled and the other also arranged for an interview.
Bear in mind I hadn't been to an interview in quite some time. The last of which, I was just coming back from a major psychotic episode.
Bright and early the next morning (8 AM to be precise), I went to meet with the manager of Innovative Fitness. I could not believe what was outside my world of hospitality. Within the first 10 minutes it was crystal clear that this team were built and motivated by team work and collective inspiration.
I went on the other interview on the same day and was over the moon to be offered both positions, but I couldn't shake the feeling I got from the gym.
After a second meeting with the principal, it was decided that I would start training the following day.
Since then, I have been waking up at 7am, running the front office, drinking my tea AND now, training with a personal trainer. What a perk! My own PT. This change is going to do wonders for my mental health, I just know it. So far I'm eating 3 healthy meals a day, sleeping better and drinking less.
Our staff meetings are made up of goal setting - staff and clients alike work together to push boundaries and challenge each other.
What's more, is that within the next couple of months I will be further utilizing my skill set by taking over bookkeeping duties.
The bottom line here is that, for the longest time and because of this illness, I thought I wasn't capable of trying something new. I thought I wasn't capable of reaching out to the unknown. I thought I wasn't capable of the challenge. . and that's my story. .
YOU CAN DREAM.
YOU CAN MAKE CHANGE.
YOU CAN CHALLENGE YOURSELF.
YOU CAN DO BETTER.
And in the end, what do you have to lose?
I didn't disclose my situation to the team, but I am willing to bet that not only will they be supportive when I do, but they will work with me to achieve a better level of stability and health.
GAWD, I'm buzzing.